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From the cramped
quarters of the motel room her family of five shared when they first arrived at
the Flag Land Base in Clearwater, Florida, Astra was moved into a dormitory
where, because Scientology would not provide a bed for her, she slept on a couch
for a year.
This was the beginning of
Astra's life in the sub-standard and oppressive living environment that is
accepted as routine to those in the Sea Organization.
Astra's affidavit covers her formative childhood and
teenage years. In it she describes the poor schooling she received and the hours
working at the behest of the Church of Scientology, including having to guard
other members who wanted to leave. Shortly after her fifteenth birthday, Astra
married a 21-year-old man on the orders of her superiors. She tells of being
belittled and yelled at by other Sea Org members, including her own mother, when
she refused to get an abortion after becoming pregnant at 19.
In her affidavit and in
newspapers articles published in the San
Francisco Chronicle on February 12, 2001 and also in the London Daily Mail on February 17,
2001 , Astra speaks out about these horrific experiences and many others
inconceivable to those unfamiliar with the practices of Scientology.
In "The Story of Kate,"
Astra Woodcraft details the pressure that was brought to bear on her to abort
her baby when it was discovered that she was pregnant. Meet Astra's beautiful
daughter, Kate, who is alive today because of Astra's courageous escape from
Scientology's Sea Organization.
I, Astra Woodcraft declare
as follows:
1. I am over the age of 18
years.
2. The statements herein
are of my own personal knowledge and if called upon as a witness, I can testify
competently thereto.
3. I was born in 1978 in
London, England. At that time, my mother was a member of the Church of
Scientology.
4. When I was 5 or 6 years
old, my mother took me to the Scientology organization in England called Saint
Hill, which is located in East Grinstead, Sussex. There I received approximately
12 hours of "auditing." The auditing I received consisted of an "auditor"
telling me to "look at that wall, thank you, walk to that wall, thank you, touch
that wall, thank you, walk away from that wall, thank you," and similar such
commands. I was made to follow these commands on a repetitive basis.
5. When I was growing up in
England to the age of seven, my mother would apply the Scientology technology
for sicknesses. When I hurt myself, she would make me do a "contact assist"
which meant that if I hit my elbow, I had to touch it back to the place where I
hit it over and over until it felt better and I wasn't allowed to stop until it
felt better. If I was ill, my mother gave me a "touch assist" where I would lie
down and close my eyes and she would touch me with her finger and ask, "feel my
finger." This was also done until I felt better. I never felt better from theses
processes but would have to pretend I did because she wouldn't stop until I said
I felt good.
6. Throughout my years in
scientology, in all the auditing I received I never felt good at the end. I made
up wins to get it over with and generally felt relief that it was over and dread
that I would have to have another session. I kept this secret always because it
is scientology policy that if a person does not get gain from auditing, it means
they are a suppressive person.
7. In 1986, when I was
seven years old, my mother's father died. He left her some money and she used it
to go to "Flag" which is the highest-level Scientology delivery organization in
the world, located in Clearwater, Florida. While she was there, she was
recruited for the Sea Organization which is where people dedicate their entire
life, and supposedly the next billion years of their lifetimes, for the purpose
of "clearing the planet" which means getting everyone into Scientology and
processed to the level of "Clear." She called and told us she had joined after
she had already started working there. She told us we all needed to join, that
we were moving to Flag to live in a beautiful apartment, that we kids would go
to a very good private school and this would all be paid for by Scientology. She
additionally told us that her and my dad would get bonuses, time off every other
weekend and family time every evening.
8. When we arrived in 1986
to the Sea Organization in Clearwater, myself, my brother, my sister and mother
all lived in one motel room for several weeks. Then we were moved into the main
living quarters for the Sea Organization members who had young children called
the QI (Quality INN) and at this point my dad joined us. Again, we lived in one
small motel room. All five of us lived in this room for approximately 3 months,
when my brother moved out. From this point on, the four remaining family members
lived in this room for about a year, wherein I was moved into a dorm with 4 or 5
other girls. In this dorm, I slept on a couch, as there was no bed for me. I
lived there for another year, which was the remainder of our time in
Clearwater.
9. We were never sent to a
private school as promised. We instead went to the local public school. I only
recall my mother taking 3 days off out of the two years we were there. She
almost never spent the evening family time with us (1 ½ hr), but stayed at work
across town. After being in Clearwater for about a year, my father was sent off
to help on the renovations of the Sea Org ship, The Freewinds. As I was moved
into a dorm, my father was gone and my mother didn't take time off to spend with
us, I almost never saw my parents.
10. At one point of our
time in Clearwater, we went back to England to take care of our Visas. My
father, my brother and I begged my mom not to take us back to Florida, as we
disliked it so much. I spent a lot of my time crying about it. My mother refused
and insisted we return.
11. For the two years that
we lived in Clearwater, I went to school until 2 p.m. and then worked at the
"Cadet Org" where we did such jobs as cleaning, etc. On weekends, we would work
as well.
12. In 1988, when I was 9
years old, my mother was transferred to middle management of the Sea
Organization, which is located in Los Angeles, California. When we arrived, my
father took a leave of absence so that he could obtain our Visas and work to pay
off debts. When we arrived in Los Angeles, we were moved into a rundown studio
apartment. After living there for about a month, my father paid for and moved us
into a proper apartment.
13. For approximately a
year, from the age of 9-10, I was in the Cadet Org in Los Angeles. This is where
the children of Sea Org members go. During the day, we went to school at a
building they had rented where there were two classrooms; one for older kids and
one for younger kids. The teacher was not a trained or certified teacher, but a
trained Scientology "Supervisor." We had no class lessons, but instead worked
straight out of books and were made to make clay "demonstrations" of what we
were studying. If we acted up in class at all, the supervisor simply threw us
out of the room. This happened to me on several occasions. One time, when I was
10, there was going to be an inspection of our school. Many of the children were
made to stay until about 3 a.m. cleaning up the premises.
14. Every day after school,
we were made to work. We were sent to the basement of one of the main offices
for the Sea Organization and made to do filing, as there were mounds of it
piling up. When work ended at approximately 9-10 p.m., we went to sleep on cots
or directly on the floor with pieces of blankets to keep us warm. When my mom
got off work, she picked me up. From what I recall, this was between 11pm-12am.
15. After being in the
Cadet Org for about 1 year, I refused to go back. Several things happened that
caused me to feel this way. A boy who was there got upset and climbed to the top
of a billboard and threatened to jump and kill himself: another boy threw a
cockroach at me and kicked me. My mother continuously tried to get me to stay
but I refused and moved in with my dad. I did continue to go to their school,
but after a few months, I was told that I either had to work in the Cadet Org or
discontinue attending their school. At this point, my father enrolled me in a
private school. It was a Scientology run school at my mother's insistence.
16. At the Scientology
school I attended, which was called "Ability Plus," there were again two
classrooms, one for younger kids and one for older kids. There was no proper
curriculum and no student had ever graduated from high school, even though they
claimed that you could. There were no class lessons; we just worked from books
and "checksheets". Our "teacher" spent several hours reading us the science
fiction book from L. Ron Hubbard called "Battlefield Earth."
17. When I was 14 years
old, I started doing a Scientology course at the Celebrity Centre in Hollywood.
Soon after, two Sea Org recruiters approached me. They were recruiting for
Bridge Publications, which is a Sea Org organization. They told me that if I
joined their group, I would get paid minimum wage {which was several hundred a
week, a lot of money for a 14 year-old); that I would not have to wear a uniform
like most Sea Org members; and that I would go to school and finish my
education. They also told me that when I was older and wanted to have children I
could. They spent several hours convincing me including telling me that the only
thing stopping me from joining was my "reactive mind." The recruiter's names
were Gavin Potter and Malcolm Chisholm. I ended up agreeing to join. One of the
reasons I agreed to join was that my mother and brother had persisted in trying
to recruit me and I knew this would make them happy.
18. Soon thereafter, I
started on the "Estates Project Force" (EPF), which is like boot camp for the
Sea Org. I started in May of 1993 and was on it for approximately two weeks.
When I first arrived, I was made to fill out a "life history" form where I had
to write down any sexual experiences I had had, all my friends' names, and
dozens of other extremely personal details. I also had to sign a contract for a
billion years. I never got a work permit. My schedule on the EPF went something
like this: 6:30 a.m. wake up and get dressed; 7:00 a.m. breakfast; 7:30 a.m.
muster (meeting); 7:30-8:00 a.m. run (not walk) around and empty all the
ashtrays and trashcans outside three different buildings; 8:00 a.m.-1:00 p.m.
study Sea Org policies; 1:00 p.m. muster and polish boots; 1:15-1:45 p.m. lunch;
1:45 p.m. muster, drilling and marching; 2:15 p.m.-7:00 p.m. work, which
included cleaning pots and pans, cleaning out a clogged toilet, sweeping and
mopping floors, etc.; 7:00-7:30 p.m. dinner; 7:30-10:00 p.m. more work;
10:00-10:30 p.m. shower; 10:30 p.m. muster; 11:15 p.m. go to bed. This was a
7-day a week schedule.
19. After I finished the
EPF in June of 1993, I started working at Bridge. The day I started working
there, they told me I was being transferred to another organization for 2
months. I was told that I had no choice but to do it, as I had no "staff
status." I went to work in the International Justice Chief's office doing
secretarial work. I had to wear a military uniform. After I worked there for
approximately three months, I was told that I was being transferred to another
organization permanently and that I again had no choice as I still had no staff
status. The organization I was transferred to was the International Training
Organization. The staff there were on $15 a week pay as they had no money and
the food they were given was beans and rice. I tried to refuse to go there but
was told again and again I had no choice. Once there, I felt I couldn't survive
on the refried beans and rice we had for every meal, so I took other food that
wasn't supposed to be for us because I was starving. This was considered
stealing. This lasted approximately 1 year.
20. For the first 6 months
that I was in the International Training Org (ITO) I was the Receptionist. I had
trouble attending the 6 hours of school that the minors went to on Saturdays
because in order to attend I had to find someone to replace me on my post. The
school here was, again, substandard with all the approximately 60 kids enrolled
in one room with one non-certified teacher. We had no lessons, no curriculum and
no way to graduate: you just stopped going when you turned 18 or got a GED.
21. Soon after I joined the
Sea Org when I was still 14, I started having a relationship with another Sea
Org member named Jason Merrill. Jason was 21. After two months we were heavily
pushed by senior scientology managers to get married, as in the Sea Org you are
not allowed to do anything other than kiss before you are married and if you do
more, you may be sent to the Rehabilitation Project Force, which means heavy
labor for at least a year. In December of 1993, when I had just turned 15, Jason
and I went to Las Vegas and got married.
22. Once married, the Sea
Org did not have a room in which we could live together so we were instructed to
live in our separate dorms until they found room that we could share and this
would take several months. Instead of this, we decided to stay down the road at
Jason's parents house, and we did so for about four months, knowing we would get
into big trouble if we were found out as it was against policy for sea org
members to live outside of church provided facilities.
23. After about 4 months,
the Executive Director International and the Commanding Officer of the CMO
International, who were at the top of the management of Scientology, came to
inspect our organization. They asked me if I knew anyone who was not living in
the Sea Org berthing and I was compelled to confess that my husband and I were
not. We were immediately ordered back into SO berthing and since there were
still no rooms available, we stayed in a storage closet that was 3/4 full of
storage for a week. We slept on the floor and there were no windows.
24. After a week in the
closet, we were moved into a room of our own, but after 1 week, that room was
taken away and we were moved to another building. We didn't find out we had been
moved after other staff members had removed our belongings. The room we were put
into next had a missing windowpane that was never replaced, very old carpet and
peeling paint. We shared the bathroom with 2 other couples and had no light
bulb, no shower curtain and no hot water the majority of the time. We lived in
this room for 6 months.
25. After being the
Receptionist at the ITO for 6 months, I was transferred to the post of Master at
Arms and then to Director of Inspections and Reports. I was in charge of
enforcing ethics and justice for the 100 staff in ITO and the 50-100 students on
training. My very first assignment was to handle a 40 year-old man whose wife
had been gone for 2 years on training. He had been masturbating which is
considered "out-ethics" and I was supposed to make him stop. I was 15 years old.
26. On this post, I also
had to handle people who wanted to leave the Sea Organization. I had to convince
them to stay and if they refused, I had to make them do hard labor and order
them to get "confessionals" which often took up to 6 months or a year to
complete before hey were allowed to leave. One couple wanted to leave and they
left without permission twice but came back. Leaving without permission is
called "blowing." I was ordered to put them under heavy watch because there was
no one else to watch them. Since there was no one else to watch them, I had to
do it. I was then ordered to put a mattress outside their door and tie my arm to
the knob while I slept so they couldn't sneak out. The policy soon became that
anyone who wanted to leave must go under "watch" to stop them from "blowing."
27. I was ordered to do
numerous watches while in the Sea Organization. Anyone who admitted to having
thoughts of suicide was immediately put under watch. I was ordered to do these
watches by executives at Religious Technology Center, CMO and OSA. My husband at
the time spent approximately nine months watching an OT Sea Org member for
reasons that were kept secret; during this time she got pregnant and had a
miscarriage. She was under watch 24 hours a day with my husband and another man
watching her during the day and another staff member watching her at
night.
28. I was also in charge of
investigating and finding the "Suppressive Person" if a department wasn't
producing enough. I had to make people write up their "overts & withholds"
(things they had done that were bad), receive confessionals, do amends, etc. I
had to write a "Suppressive Person" declare on a lady who had already left with
permission but then was ordered to receive more confessionals and was having
trouble getting a ride to come over and receive them. She was then made to
disconnect from family and friends who were in the Sea Org and her husband was
ordered to split up from her, but he refused.
29. During my time in the
Sea Organization I started going to the 6 hour a week school less and less. I
couldn't get anyone to cover my job and got in trouble for leaving it. Also, the
school got reduced even further to all of us sitting all day in a room doing
Spelling and Math bees. By the time I was 16, I was attending sporadically and
at 17 I wasn't attending at all. I didn't think it made any difference since I
didn't learn a thing while I was there. I didn't learn math, history, science,
social studies or English. I just did spelling bees, read a book, etc. After I
turned 18, some of the kids got to go take their GED, but because I was over 18
I didn't get to do it since there was "no reason" as I no longer legally had to
attend school. It was well known that the legal minimum for school attendance
for a minor is 20 hours a week. We were told this, but the law was blatantly
ignored.
30. From the age of 14, I
had an official schedule starting at 8:00 a.m. and ending at 10:00 p.m., but
regularly worked later, sometimes until 2 or 3 a.m. We got 30 minutes for lunch
and 45 minutes for dinner and no other breaks. We regularly were ordered to work
during part of our meal times. We sometimes got into trouble if we went to the
canteen when it wasn't our mealtime. The schedule was 7 days a week, but we got
Sunday morning to do our laundry and clean our rooms. On Saturday's we did labor
work, consisting of renovations, etc. There was a period of 3 weeks or so in
1995 when I was still a minor where there was a huge evolution to print new
policies to revise all the Scientology technology. (This is known as the "Golden
Age of Tech within the church.) During this time, all staff including minors
were ordered to work around the clock literally to produce these new polices and
put them into binders. My job was to go and wake up any staff who went to sleep
and make them get back to work. I would fall asleep while driving. I got
approximately 2 hours of sleep a night during this time, but many times got no
sleep for 2 or more days. I was ordered to drive around even though I was
falling asleep and incoherent due to no sleep. One time I parked my car and
accidentally fell asleep and woke up 3 hours later because a meter attendant was
knocking on my window. Once this "evolution" was complete, the staff was
rewarded with a trip to the movies.
31. In approximately 1996,
when I was 16 or 17, there was a re organization done and I became in charge of
the ethics and security departments for the entirety of middle management known
as the Flag Liaison Office. One day, the Chief of Security International, Jeff
Porter, came and gave me an order to get some staff to do security at an event.
I didn't do it because I didn't consider it my job. He then came back and
screamed at me, pushed me up against a wall and screamed at me more while
holding me against the wall and spitting in my face. I complained about this but
nothing was done to handle it.
32. When I was 18, I was
transferred to another job in the Data department. This was because someone said
I was not qualified for the job I had been doing because I had tried marijuana
when I was 13 years old. I worked in the Data department for one year. My
senior, Wayne Furness, harassed me on a regular basis. When I first started
working under him, he started calling me a lesbian and telling me and another
girl that we were lesbians. I got very upset and finally wrote a report to his
senior. She told him to stop and nothing more. He stopped calling me a lesbian,
but because I had reported him, he continued to call me other names such as
"Two-ton Tesse" (I was not in the slightest overweight being 5'6", 130 lbs),
telling me I had "soft-skin", etc. When he would say these things I got upset
and then he would say that I had withholds and to write them up or he would tell
me to go to ethics. He got his other juniors to side with him and tell me that I
had "soft-skin", etc. I reported this behavior but nothing was done because our
department, which Wayne was in charge of, produced a lot and the policy from L.
Ron Hubbard is that if someone's statistics are "up" then they can't get in
trouble no matter what they do. Someone once "looked into" the situation, but
nothing was done.
33. When I worked in the
Data department, one of my jobs was to gather the statistics from around the
world on a weekly basis and compile them all and graph them on the computer.
There were approximately 300 organizations and I had to get each one to report
in between 50-200 statistics each week. Every Thursday we had to get this done
and had to stay at work until 3am. We also only got 5-10 minutes to eat lunch
and dinner if at all. Every week there were, of course, a few organizations that
were late reporting or had missing reports and every week staff from an
organization called CMO International would write to me on a system similar to
instant messaging getting progressively angrier as the day went on and there
were missing reports. They would call us if they got really mad. I had to sit
and answer their questions about where the reports were from 8am until about 9pm
at night. I was told things like "You are fucking counter-intention," and "You
are stopping these reports coming in," and other such expressions if any reports
were late. They would also call me and my senior and scream and swear at us.
Screaming and swearing is the regular way that seniors get juniors to do things
in the Sea Organization. I was screamed and sworn at on a regular basis while I
was in the Sea Organization.
34. There were a series of
policies implemented by management while I worked in the Sea Org. When I had
been there for a few months, our Commanding Officer made a new rule that no one
could leave the building without her permission. Then I was told that I was not
allowed to see my dad and have dinner with him without a specific reason and
special permission. After about a year they told us that we were not allowed to
eat anywhere but in the building nor were we to eat any food other than that
provided. We were not allowed to go next door for pizza or anything. After about
3 years, we were told that we could not use our Sunday morning laundry time for
anything else either, i.e., seeing our family, parents seeing their kids, or
anything.
35. At around this time,
another new policy was issued stating that no one could make or receive any
personal calls without someone from the ethics and security department being
with them. Personal calls were not transferred to us and a list was made each
day of all incoming personal calls. This list was sent to the executives and the
Religious Technology Center so that they could monitor who was being
"influenced."
36. My calls from my father
were rarely routed to me and instead I would receive a note 2 or 3 days later
telling me he had called. I had to go and hide in a phone booth to call him. On
Christmas Day we were not allowed to go with our family or do anything other
than the planned trip unless we got special permission, which was sometimes
denied.
37. About 9 months before I
left I was told that I could never see my father again unless I was working to
get him back into the Sea Organization.
38. We were also made to
fill out interrogatories listing out any gifts we received from family members,
who we spoke to and anyone we knew who had left the Sea Organization. Anyone we
were talking to, family or friends, who had either left Scientology, gave us
gifts or money or tried to get us to take time off, were called 'External
Influences" and we were ordered to either handle them or disconnect from them
entirely.
39. The staff was also made
to practice how they would handle family members who inquired about how they
were doing, etc. I was instructed to lie to my father and tell him I was
attending school and not working long hours.
40. If a staff member got
into trouble they would be assigned "lower conditions." This meant doing
formulas and amends, etc. A new policy came out after I had been there for a
year stating that staff who were in lower conditions had to sit in the fire
escape stairwell or in the trash room to eat their meals. They also had to do up
to 40 hours of amends on their own time, which was during their meal times or
after 10:30 at night. I myself had to eat in the stairwell and do hours of
amends on my sleep or mealtime. We also were not allowed to watch TV and anyone
who had a TV and VCR had it confiscated and only given to them if they had a day
off and wanted to watch a movie.
41. For the almost 5 years
that I was in the Sea Organization, I never got one day off with my husband
other than 2 days when we got married and Christmas Day. I myself only got
approximately 10-15 days off in the 5 years that I worked there.
42. Approximately 1½ years
before I left, a new rule came out stating that if you got pregnant, you had to
either get an abortion, which was heavily pushed, or leave. The rule had
previously been that if you got pregnant, you had to get an abortion or be sent
to a small and failing lower organization where you had to fend for yourself and
your baby. I had to handle any staff that disagreed with this new rule. I myself
disagreed with it because I wanted children and was told I would be able to have
them when I was first recruited. However, I never said anything for fear of
getting into trouble. I got to the point of being suicidal because I was so
unhappy, but I never said anything because I would have gotten into big trouble
and been looked down upon.
43. In September of 1997,
my grandma in England died. I convinced my seniors that I had to go to her
funeral in England. They did not want me to go, but finally relented and let me
take an 8-day leave. When I returned I realized that I could not take being
split apart from my family any longer. I decided to get pregnant because if I
tried to just leave, I would be made to do heavy labor and confessionals for 6
months to a year and be called a "degraded being" by the other staff. I got
pregnant in January of 1998 and on February 23rd 1998 I left without permission,
got on a plane and went to stay with my aunt and uncle in England. No one knew
up until then that I was pregnant and I was really sick and had to get away. My
seniors in Scientology threatened me that if I didn't come back and receive a
confessional I would be declared a Suppressive Person and my family would never
speak to me again. My mother who is still in the Sea Org called me on a
continuous basis telling me to get an abortion and return.
44. I returned on April
1st, 1998. Jeff Porter told me that if I left again, I would be declared
immediately. I told the security staff there that I would stay with my father
and come in every day for my confessional, explaining that I needed proper
nutrition and they couldn't provide it. They told me that I had to stay in their
berthing or I would be put under a non enturbulation order, which means that if
I caused further trouble, that is if I still refused to stay in their berthing,
I would be declared suppressive. I then agreed that I would stay there for four
days, which is how long my confessional was supposed to take. The Security Chief
wrote me a letters stating that if I was not done with my confessional within
four days, I could stay with my father until I finished.
45. Four days later I was
not done, but I was told that they had only written the letter to get me to stay
in the berthing and that it was not valid. Therefore, I had to continue to stay
in Sea Org berthing and eat micro waved meals even though I was suffering from
morning sickness. I had to sleep on the floor in a small room while waiting for
my confessionals. I was there for 1 month.
46. It took a lot less time
for me to leave because they didn't want any of the other staff to know I was
pregnant, so they were trying to get me out quick. A staff member from the
Religious Technology Center (The Sea Org's highest organization) came up to me
one day while I was in the process of routing out and asked me what I was doing.
I told him that I was pregnant and leaving and he said to me "Oh, too late for
an abortion?" I personally knew of three other girls who got pregnant and were
convinced to get abortions. One was my sister-in-law who was 16 weeks pregnant
when she was convinced to abort her child although she was strongly against it.
My mother told my sister and I that it was good that she got an
abortion.
47. Another thing I had to
do before being allowed to leave was sign an affidavit stating that I thought
Scientology and the Sea Org were great and that I was leaving because I couldn't
confront bad things I had done. I was told I could not leave without signing
this document and that if I did leave before signing, I would be declared a
suppressive person. I signed it knowing that it was not legal as it was signed
under duress. It was the standard policy to make anyone who left the Sea Org
sign such an affidavit and if you didn't agree to what they wrote in it, you
were sent in for more confessionals and ethics handlings until you
did.
48. For the first few
months after I left, I was called to come back in several times to answer
questions for investigations. I was threatened if I wouldn't come in.
49. When I left, I was
given a bill totaling $89,000 for auditing and courses that I had done while I
was in the Sea Org. I have been called approximately 10 times by various staff
members including Bob Diskin and Renee Norton pressuring me to send them money
to pay this bill. I have been sent about 20 letters on this subject.
50. When I was about 8
months pregnant, my ex-husband wrote me a letter and told me that he had decided
that he did not want to have anything to do with our daughter when she was born.
He stated that it was because he had to dedicate all his time to the Sea
Organization. When my daughter was 6 months old, I wrote to him and told him
that I needed him to figure out a way to pay child support, as I was not able to
support our daughter. He didn't reply for 6 months, but told his parents to stop
seeing our daughter. They had been seeing her every other weekend up until that
point and then I stopped hearing from them. They, too, are Scientologists. I
ended up giving up trying to get child support from my ex-husband.
I declare under penalty of
perjury under the laws of the United States of America and the state of Florida
that the foregoing is true and correct.
Executed in Clearwater,
Florida this 24th day of January 2001.
Astra Woodcraft
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